so im genuinely considering setting myself and my school on fire. i wanna wait till everyone leaves cuz i don't wanna hurt anyone, js destroy the building. i think the principle of school is what caused me harm. yes the ppl did too but idt they deserve to die. im not a god, as long as they're not serial killers or rapists, i shouldn't decide that. ik i deserve it. idk y im planning it out. im not gonna do it. i shouldn't do it. but ik exactly how i would. i don't wanna leave a tutorial for anyone else so i won't go into detail, but i rlly don't wanna hurt someone. ig i should js remember that i can't control the fire if im dead. if i can't control it i cold end up hurting ppl which i don't want to do. there's a beautiful forest in that area that i don't want to destroy. i don't want to destroy the areas that i have memories in or maybe i do so i go down w them. the building is my hell not my surroundings. that's all i want gone. me and my hell. if i set myself on fire i don't have to worry about dying beautiful, i'll b burnt to a crisp and the fat will melt right off me. maybe for one moment while im burning all the fat will slide right off and i'll finally b beautiful for js one moment, js one second, i'll b beautiful. i'll go up in a blaze and if i don't get my moment of beauty the fire will. i've asked ppl what they would do if i did it and no one seems to rlly care. ig they think i'm joking. im not. im prob the number 1 suspect if the school ever does burn down cuz i always talk about it, but if im still alive i didn't do it. however i go cheers to momento mori
