so i haven't done this in a while. im a lot better mentally than i was when i first started and i decided to come back after learning some more javascript and if u don't know ur months its summer. also 2 more driving lessons and i can drive :D (w a parent in the car(they're going to hot topic they js don't know it) idk nj laws r weird) i also have been getting into bluey
so i went to the psychologist or smth i wanted to cry on the scale tho ngl (fucking disgusting fucking hate myself) switched meds and shit. then i went to a play in the park w my bestie and the girl behind me was legit my girl and she even had the same name as me!!! so i kept looking back cuz ofc i did. then when we were watching the show i saw her sharing i blanket w a guy :( at that moment i knew i was cooked. the play was in the heights and i liked it but i couldn't understand it cuz my brain can't keep up w half spanish considering it can barely keep up w english. there was also a kid from my school that graduated in there so that was cool. anyway im pretty sure someone sharted during intermission cuz it started smelling attrocious towards the end of intermission and toward the begging of act 2 i had to spray perfume cuz i didn't want my nose to die. after the play me and my bsf walked around cuz we were waiting so we wouldn't die getting out of the parking lot and we were racing and i was wearing a short ass skirt and i fell down the hill like a slip n slide. also lets mark today as freakstagram cuz wtf instagram???? so there was that. we also had to try to help some ppl find there phone but we couldn't find it. after i got home i started dying my hair (pink again ofc (def not cuz we got an extra pink when i did it last time) i obvi did it cuz i love women). then my friend starts spamming me about mha. for the record i fucking hate mha. i think its boring af. he knows this he js doesn't care which is fine. he's done a lot for me so i owe him but HOW ARE YOU HAVING A MENTAL BREAKDOWN ABOUT A FICTIONAL CHARACTER???? also he was like mad about some character possibly confessing their feelings to another during said characters mental breakdown. HOW ABOUT WE LEARN HOW THAT'S PART OF MY LORE? HOW ABOUT THAT?? OMG IM A REAL FUCKING PERSON LET'S PAY ATTENTION TO ME AND NOT JUST TALK TO ME ABOUT A SHOW I FUCKING HATE!! MAYBE THERE'S A REASON I'M THE ONLY PERSON THAT WILL LISTEN?? CUZ IT'S FICTION TALK TO A THERAPIST. i legit can't w this shit. my brain is going to explode cuz idk how u can send me shit about a show i hate and get mad at me for hating on a character u like. im sorry but wtf is a comfort character? like ik ur a pussy but tf is this shit? js remember i paid for ur nitro. i js can't stand when PPL R THERE FOR FICTIONAL CHARACTERS BUT NOT REAL FUCKING PEOPLE!!! i'm sorry i js can't believe i might be losing my friend to fucking anime characters. fuck, a guy that i considered a father figure cares more about fiction than me. not too different from my real dad ig. i fucking can't.